It was the same desolate lane I took three years back. The only difference- that fateful day it was afternoon & now it is a starlit night. The perennial fear of a betrayed man is my only company- the fear of betrayal & the hope of betrayal of fear. That day, they were more, they were sudden, mechanical & merciless. They were my friends. They were too strong for me. I failed. Or did I? Did I not have a strange smile….the smile of a man beginning to have a grasp of the cipher…??? Feeling helpless beyond sanity…..unable to do anything…even despair??
My body is shivering from the retrospection……..or is this catharsis???
Shock had given way to anger. I decided I’ll fight back. I am stronger…I said to myself. Their move was to weaken my resolve, but they couldn’t…..can’t & will not RAPE my spirit.
Today when I walked down the same lane, fear had been replaced by anger & anger by resilience. I will win….coz I cannot afford to loose.
My body is shivering from the retrospection……..or is this catharsis???
Shock had given way to anger. I decided I’ll fight back. I am stronger…I said to myself. Their move was to weaken my resolve, but they couldn’t…..can’t & will not RAPE my spirit.
Today when I walked down the same lane, fear had been replaced by anger & anger by resilience. I will win….coz I cannot afford to loose.
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